Suddenly everything that ties you to the middle lets you go
And gravity loses its hold.
You are at peace, running dirty hands through dirty hair
Singing songs without lyrics or rhyme or composer
It was all straight from the depths of nowhere
But I lived for it.
And sang my lungs apart, gripping onto the one thing
that lead me
astray and to all things familiar,
In the quest for my destiny I took a closer look
at my shoes, wherever they set down to chat with the ground
and tickle the spring-stained grass.
How they looked on my feet
as they guide me about and twirl me around on my axis
spinning like a world.
I spent time talking
as I journeyed by
free as air.
I escaped the silence and the closed doors
the long lines and the bright lights
I escaped it all
running and walking
and singing that lyricless song.
Thank you love and emotion
and breath for laying me down to sleep
and catching me on the brink of losing
it all before it was mine.
and I so I walk a little lighter
not following any lines or watching where
my shoes land.
Here I am world
having found what I was missing
and learnt to miss it less.
Here I am
the tiny grains of sand in my hair
the earthy after smell of imperfection
the lady with a whimsical smile
starring out at raindrops and wind.
Here I am
chasing the sunrays with my eyes
galloping, riding, flying.
I should know me by now.
And you won’t ever see me out crying on my own
with a broken heart and the tang of yesterday’s horror splashed across my face.
I swear you won’t catch me playing with the kind of fire that burns
or the kinda cold that chills you right down to your soul.
I learnt myself over
page by page.
Here I am.
by Upile Chisala