Note to self

And loving yourself isn’t a sin,
loving yourself is one of the bravest things people will call you out on.
Most things about you are magical and should be praised.
You are a goddess in and of yourself

grandmothers

When your grandmother dies,
she does not remain in the ground
or in the picture on your bedside table.
you will find,
that when a man kisses new dreams into you
you’ll remember to thank her for your face
and the lessons she whipped into your skin
thank her for making you worthy of good love
again and again.

what it should be

Kiss me with your entire life,
Anything less than that and it can’t be love.

The Process

The snow & I

Don’t ask me to stay the same,
Ask me to stay and I will try to always love you the same,
But even that I can’t promise.

11/18/13

Love is :
the sweetest of surrenders
and the most common offender.
Be wary of it.

I too

I wonder if
maybe I like listening to lies
and that makes me a liar by association
because every time your lips open
teeth part
and meet
and part and meet
leaving room for untruths
to be spat out
I look at you delicately
almost proud of how good you’re getting
at making me want to believe you.

Close

You were the first thing outside of myself
that I looked at and felt connected to
Do you understand this?

When truthful

Do not write me off as empty
because alone
is my peace.
I have chosen myself first
fiercely
because I suffice.

.For you.

I have all the audacity in this world
see how I love you!
see how I adore your skin!
like you were the earth itself
like you were everything in the sky
and when I am in your arms
I am the bird.
the gleeful bird.

Yours

I am going to love you,
again and again
until it wrecks me
and I will call the wrecking my truth
and I will live in the wreckage
again and again
because quitting you is as dangerous
as loving you.